Please don't have somebody waiting on you.

Ehh Today I could be soooo much happier :/ I dont know why but I feel so shitty. Its one of those days that I miss Terry a lot. I really hurts that he doesnt miss me at all. And if he did hes not willing to fight for me. Its so unfortunate because I dont ask much from a boyfriend. But I wasnt good enough for him. Part of me is still hoping that school will come around and he will see how much weight Ive lost and he might realize he misses me.. unfortunately its way to late for another chance anyways.. I do miss him a lot but what the hell would we even have to talk about anymore. Im happy for his girl friend because to her its a romantic fairy tale about to friends finally getting to be together!  And Im the bitch girlfriend she had to push out of the way but when stories like that happen nobody ever thinks about the previous girlfriend/boyfriend that is now heart broken. Both of them are finally happy together but what the hell. Idk its one of those days....

• This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? yeahh

• If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? obviously, but I wouldnt do it in the first place.
• The last time you felt honestly broken? today.
• Are you craving something?waterr
• If you could have one thing right now what would it be? A good night kiss.
• Would you rather have ten kids, or none? ten
• What do you hear right now? taylor swift.
• Is your bed against more than one of your walls?nope
• What’s on your mind right now? This stupid guy that I like :/
• Are you there for your friends? Everyday.
• Last person to see you cry? seth
• What do you do when you get nervous? fidget.
• Be honest, do you like people in general? I hate people.
• How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? 23.
• Does anyone completely understand you? not really.
• Do you have a reason to smile right now? yeah, but Im not in the mood :/
• Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? yeah but they did and they were perfectly fucking fine.
• Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? yeahh. But it would need a play button too.
• Do you tell your mum or dad everything? my mom.
• Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? not really.
• Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? Pretty hurt now but Im sure they could make it worse.
• This time last year, can you remember who you liked? terry.
• Do you think more about the past, present, or future? I dwell on the past a lot, but I think its pretty even
• How many hours of sleep do you get a night? a lot
• Are you easy to get along with? yeah I hate conflict.
• Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? why would I have a conversation with her if I hated her?
• What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? water.
• What size bed do you have? queen
• Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Before.
• Do you like the rain? mehh
• Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? yeahh
• Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? all the time.
• Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? neither.
• Who were you last in the car with, besides family? alison
• What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? I dont remember.
• Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? No
• Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? Terryterryterryterry
• Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? ahhh about that...
• Do you regret a past relationship? yupppp
• Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? why not both.
• Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? Nope.
• Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? yeahh.
• Do you care too much about your appearance? I wouldnt say too much.
• Are you a jealous person? Yeah but theres a fucking reason for it.
• Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? EARRINGS OMGG
• Do you miss anyone? Terrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy like fuck. But I think its just the past few days :(
• Last person who made you cry? no one really made me cry...
• Does your ex piss you off? disappoints me..
• What are you doing tomorrow? Im not sure yett.
• Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? thats called a slut.
• Is there anyone you want to come see you? mehhhh yess
• Have you ever been cheated on? YUP.
• Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Terry... can you see why Im pissed about this.
• Do you like cotton candy? who the fuck doesnt.
• Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? alison.
• Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? you can plan being knocked up.
• Do you have siblings? yeah.
• Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? yeah.
• How has the past week been for you? shitty.
• Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? always.
• What’s on your mind right now? this guy that me gusta...